Bad at Quieting the Mind
Many of my posts grow out what I notice myself thinking about during practice. No, the mind does not magically shut off during yoga- that's a myth. I notice thoughts such as these little nuggets from this past workshop with the inimitable Ana Forrest:
"Ana's walking by, quick,(scans body) what am I doing wrong?!"
"Hey look, my foot. I must grab it."
"I AM pressing down through my inner... Oh."
"Connect. Connnnnnect. F*cking connect already!"
"My boobs look really weird from this angle."
"I wonder if this tension stems from that time when in grade school when... "
"Why aren't they adjusting me?"
"Why are they adjusting me?!"
"I'm the soooo great at this because..."
"Is that a new mole? Cancer?"
This can all be quite entertaining when I don't try to control it. I like to view this inner dialogue not as anything wrong but as something similar to bad daytime tv- unnecessarily dramatic, often repetitive, and better left to play itself out in the background while I focus on more reality based things. It helps me relate to this well intentioned but often confused mind with a bit more compassion.
"Oh god, I forgot to put on deodorant."
And that one was true.